After I read this entry about Women and Solitude, it really stuck with me. I love the phrase “heroine of solitude” – it makes me think of a women standing on a cliff in a raggedy cape summoning a falcon. The fact that this is what I think of first shows off my penchant for the dramatic.
For me I am consistently finding ways to balance my craving for solitude with my desire to help the world as best I can. To see someone lauded as successful who is also described as “hermit-like” is refreshing. So often women are only portrayed as possessing certain qualities. My love of home and solitude can often be interpreted as aloofness by outsiders. I’m almost over-conscious of this – sometimes agreeing to events when I might otherwise prefer a quiet evening with a book.
There are times when testing my limits are a positive. The Yelp! community is a perfect example of this. I became an “Elite” member this year & am invited to special events once a month. I’ve enjoyed the events I go to – I’m surrounded by strangers chatting! I do still fly under the radar. I go to prove to myself that I can – that I’m capable of milling about awkwardly & surviving.
Baby steps. Baby Steps.